Tearing Up My Heart

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The words that she spoke so clearly to me were these hurtful words that I pray are just a dream: "I don't love you anymore, I never have and never will, the whole time we were together I was just using you for your fame, not because I really liked you".... God, only 31 words, that contained such meaning, such vibrant messages, that would pierce my heart with such force. Why? Did she treat me this way? What had I done to her to deserve this treatment? And me, such a damn fool, I waited on her hand and foot, was there when she called. I did everything right, I just don't understand, what I did to make her not love me. I was perfect, more so ever than I had been in my past relationships. I can't live without  her, I need her, I crave her, I want her, I have to have her, and if I can't then I feel that my life is not worth living. I don't want to be in this world without her by my side. I should have seen it coming, how short patients she got with me at times, but hell, I just figured it was P.M.S. But I guess I should have none better, for somebody to love me as me is all merely a dream, and I just can't carry that burden anymore, so I'm saying goodbye to all of my fans, to my family, and most of all the guys, I love you so much, and----BANG. The gun went off which shot Joshua Scott Chasez in the head, killing him instantly.</div> <bR> <div> R.I.P </div> <div>                                        May 2, 2001</div> <bR> <bR> <div>   <script type="text/javascript" language="JavaScript"> sw="none";sd="none";ref=""+escape(document.referrer); </script> <script type="text/javascript" language="JavaScript1.2"> sw=screen.width;nav=navigator.appName; sc=(nav!="Netscape")?screen.colorDepth:screen.pixelDepth; </script> <script type="text/javascript" language="JavaScript"> function doit(str) {document.writeln(str);} qs="&sw="+sw+"&sc="+sc+"&ref="+ref; url='http://counter32.bravenet.com/index.php?'; url += 'id=341241&usernum=2682827986&cpv=1'; curl='http://counter32.bravenet.com/counter.php?id=341241&usernum=2682827986'; doit('<a href="'+url+'" target="_top"><img border="0" src="'+curl+qs+'" /></a>') </script> <noscript> <a href="http://counter32.bravenet.com/index.php?id=341241&usernum=2682827986&cpv=1" target="_top"><img src="http://counter32.bravenet.com/counter.php?id=341241&usernum=2682827986" alt="Bravenet.com" border="0" /></a> </noscript>  </div> </td> </tr></table></body>